You have to suck Tokyo into your lungs and let it rewrite your DNA.
You have to piece together your own reality one combini at a time.
As you look around your tiny room and try to remember the rest of some words from an Elvis Costello song,
you grab things and put them together and that is how you change a part of the world.
It doesn’t matter, not to anyone but you, and it doesn’t objectively matter actually at all.
But it will matter when you hit Tokyo’s streets.
It will help your brain figure out how to piece it all together and give it immovable coordinates on your permanent brain map.
Like I said, you have to let the city rewrite your DNA.
Actually, you don’t have any choice in the matter, but it’s always easier when you acquiesce and let it happen easily.
I figured that after participating in Brisbane’s annual Artists Evening of Sharing event for the last three years it was time to finally show excerpts from “Tokyo Panic Stores” publicly. So that’s what’s going to happen next month at Brisbane city hall. Below is the official announcement in Brisbane’s official monthly newsletter.
Last night I spent two hours getting an old Hewlett-Packard 8250 photo printer to produce eleven 8 1/2” x 11” borderless copies of “Tokyo Panic Stories” photographs from 2012 and 2013. The 8250 is notorious for having faulty paper feed rollers, so it was a time-consuming pain in the ass to get each photo paper sheet to load properly into the machine by pushing every one with my fingers. In the end, as you can see below, I got the job done, and I am very pleased with the results. The next step is to mount the photos on some kind of rigid backing so they can hang properly in Brisbane city hall’s main conference room.
If you live in the Bay Area near San Francisco, I do hope you’ll come by for the official reception for my work next month. I haven’t shown my work in any kind of public space since 1989, and I am really looking forward to this.
I walked from Nakano to Shinjuku alone
I was never really alone or ever am.
The city was with me.
A god-pigeon was with me.
We watched hanami pass into hanafubuki,
as the city shook the petals loose.
I took them from the ground,
petals like silken snow
falling on harsh pavements and concrete.
It can be just as beautiful as hanami.
There are patterns to all of it,
everything has a place randomly assigned.
As I stood there at Kandagawa,
my hand full of Tokyo’s grace,
I looked nearby to the street,
the post-hanami trash had it’s own kind of beautiful pattern too.
(Pictures taken near the intersection of Otakibashi-dori and the Kanda River (Kandagawa) in April, 2012)
This winter is hitting Tokyo hard. Friends in the Tokyo metropolitan area and nearby Chiba prefecture have reported impassible streets, shut down highways, and commuter trains delayed for long periods or cancelled due to accumulations of ice and snow. And this has me windering how Tokyo’s homeless population is dealing with this winter nightmare.
My guess is the city’s street folk are scrambling for cover under bridges, or for warm, dry digs in Tokyo’s larger JR and Metro stations. If that is even an option. I haven’t spent a winter in Tokyo since early 1988, so I don’t really know any more how Tokyo’s homeless and destitute deal with weather like this. Realistically they can’t sprawl out and crash on the streets the way they do in warm weather, as shown in my photographs below. And if Tokyo is anything like most major American cities, there aren’t enough homeless shelters or temporary housing facilities available to accommodate everyone who needs to get off the freezing streets.
But I do know of one organization that I would bet hard cash is doing everything it can to get homeless and chronically alcoholic people into as many warm beds as possible. It’s the Sanyūkai NPO down in Tokyo’s Sanya skid row area. The non-secular NPO is run by Deacon Jean LeBeau, while Sister Rita Burdzy manages Sanyūkai’s small free medical clinic. They’re both Christian missionaries, and are pictured below.
What I urge you to do, after looking through these photos and perusing Sanyūkai’s English-language page, is make a donation to this small but very important charitable and homeless outreach organization. Tokyo’s streets are killing cold right now, and Sanyūkai NPO could use your help in helping others.
–Dan Ryan, Brisbane, California, 02/16/14
Sanya in April, 2012…
Sanya in September, 2013…
At Sanyūkai NPO…
Sister Rita Burdzy
Deacon Jean LeBeau
(Pictures taken in Sanya, Tokyo in 2012 and 2013)
It has never been in my karma to meet famous people. It just never happens to me*. But in 2012 I had the good fortune to meet “Tokyo Vice” author and enemy of Japanese crime Jake Adelstein at a sports pub in Roppongi. That was a wonderful gathering, during which the best-selling author autographed two books for me and I met some excellent people who are now friends. But because we were in a group and Jake was pressed for time, he and I didn’t really have a chance to talk privately.
However, fortune or fate paid me the rare compliment of granting me the chance to meet up with Jake again. We had breakfast together recently at a nice hotel near Union Square in San Francisco. We talked of many things, from cameras to conspiracies, and the hotel bar even had Dr Pepper. As ever Jake was gracious and accommodating and let me take his picture. I suppose it is my way of boasting that I am publishing a couple photos of him here for you to peruse.
Thanks, Mr. Adelstein, and I look forward to next time, whenever that may be…
(Pictures taken at the Parc 55 Wyndham Hotel, San Francisco, on November 6th, 2013)
* I was within five feet of Mike Tyson and Robin Givens at Ueno Park Zoo once, but I didn’t have the courage to walk up and shake Tyson’s hand. The couple was, ironically in Tyson’s case I thought, looking at the gorillas. This was in March, 1988, a couple of days before Tyson destroyed Tony Tubbs in two minutes and 54 seconds at the Tokyo Dome. I heard Tyson left Tokyo pretty quickly after the fight to avoid the wrath of Japanese fight fans and promoters, but that may be apocrypha gathered from the Tokyo gaijin grapevine that existed at the time.
How many worlds on dust motes
have we destroyed by washing our clothes?
But gnashing your teeth
you can’t run
from the gutters
in your mind
or the gutters where you sleep.
I am monstrous heavy for you
and the crutch that gets you by.
I’m the welcome that never comes
and the kiss that says goodbye.
The concrete is warm
It baked all day in the sun
My bare feet enjoy it
But I must be careful
To avoid the broken glass.
The light of gods in the foyer
blinded me when I wanted to leave home.
There was no sass to it,
only rumors that life was better
under the overpasses
where the rich drive their Tokyo cars.
My head is doing that thing again,
that thing I told you about,
that thing where you all speak
and I can’t tell which is me.
I think it’s time to blow this pop stand,
blow it with dynamite,
and go get that beer we’ve been talking about
for all the long decades since we came here
and found there’s only so much shame one can bear
but only if one decides to feel shame at all.
Yeah, here we go.
This will be fun.
(Pictures taken in the Sanya area, near the Sanyūkai NPO free clinic, in April, 2012)
April 28th, 2012 was a quiet and beautiful day. The entire city of Tokyo was gearing up for the Golden Week holiday. But I had an appointment in Sanya at 13:30 with the staff of the Sanyūkai NPO free clinic to take pictures for a story about their work with the destitute and down-and-out. However, I got to Minami-senju Station early. So I wandered over to the shōtengai in Sanya, an area now officially called Nihonzutsumi, to see what other interesting things I could see. What I found surprised me, considering most of the people I had previously photographed in that part of town.
It was a little a street fair and flea market, a delightful thing to find in this run-down, hard-drinking part of Tokyo. I walked around for half an hour, taking pictures of the vibrance, cohesion, and community I saw in a place that isn’t exactly known for any of these things. It was heartening to experience this little street fair. And tired as I was after finishing my work for the day, I felt uplifted as I walked to Minami-senju Station and caught the Hibiya Line back toward western Tokyo and my apartment in Nakano-ku. While you’re here, have a look around:
Some young parents and their kids checking out used goods in the street.
Two buddies, sharing stories and beers. I wrote a bit of poem-fiction about them here.
Jewelry for sale, but they weren’t very aggressive about it.
Odds and ends for kids.
This guy was pretty colorful, and I did a color-full story on him here.
An obaa-chan with a stylish fanny pack, watching people in the street go by.
And of course this being Sanya, at one end of the shōtengai near a liquor store these men were gathered in the gutter and drinking heavily. Sanya is consistent that way.
If you would like to see more pictures and stories from this Golden Week street fair, please have a look here. And enjoy.
All the vast introduction letters of the universe,
and perhaps even
a carte de visite from some god
won’t get you anywhere in this town.
What it’s reduced to is an old truth:
That if we can’t laugh at ourselves,
we may as well cry for others.
Then maybe have a snack and
a drink of some substance and gusto.
What the hell, it works for those bums in America.
It may as well work for us.
It was the first Saturday of Golden Week, at a small flea market and street fair in Sanya.
It was a nice day. Lots of good stuff for sale on the street.
But among the mothers and little kids and conventionally-dressed walk-a-day oldsters and salaryman dads, this guy stood out.
Still, business was good. He had stuff in which housewives and grandmothers had interest.
And in between customers, he sat quietly, patiently, seeming to think while watching this small piece of the world go by.
(Pictures taken on the shōtengai in Sanya, Tokyo on April 28th, 2012)
In places like Sanya, the beat-down dour spirit is so palpable you wonder why someone or some group bothered to leave evidence of art or joy. You’re glad they did, but you wonder.
Like why someone took time to plaster a huge, complex work of art on the side of a rundown shop. It’s heartening, but also seems a bit like putting a fresh coat of paint on a ghost town.
Or why there’s still a kiddie coin ride toy sitting waiting in the street, even though it’s chipped and looks as if no child has ridden it in years.
Or why there’s more art pasted on the front of a closed shop, of a seemingly vibrant woman moving, or dancing, with a red skull of death. It looks like work from the same artist as above.
But then you look some more, see a Kirin booze can, trash bag, and newspapers in the seat of a kiddie racecar riding toy, and you remember that the street finds its own use for things.
(Pictures taken in Sanya (Nihonzutsumi), Tokyo in April, 2012)
Years live and die, as they will.
Kiosks and memory come and go.
My past is here, sweating in a wool suit, thanking the gods of physics and money for Japan.
Sweating in a wool suit, no CoolBiz in the ‘80s, and wondering, as young men will:
“If after Tokyo, what?”
After Tokyo was many years finding me.
After Tokyo I couldn’t find the parts I left in Japan.
So I came back here and found them, most of them.
They dangled from phone straps.
And it’s still Yushima Station, a wretched coffin with throughput rails.
I’m glad for it.
Bits of my mind still live there, and that makes it always my empty, wide-open home.
(Pictures taken at Yushima Station, Tokyo, in April 2012)
I never jumped in the Sumida River
but I thought about it
Not to die, but to float,
float down to the sea.
Where the birds go
to have lunch on spring days
when the trash we leave them
isn’t quite enough to take home to the family.
The floating idea,
it’s all about the dream time,
the closing of eyes,
of being borne by Earth’s amniotic fluid
to the place where we all come home.
It’s a place we don’t want to go
but can’t help desiring.
It’s instinct, like picking our teeth with a knife.
but we do it
because we’ve been dreaming of
floating down rivers
for so many thousands of years.
(Picture taken at Minami-senju Station, Tokyo, in April 2012)
It was a little like the scenario in that Kinks song “Lola”, but only in passing. I met her in a little place called Seoul Bar, which is in a rundown section of northeast Tokyo called Sanya. At first I thought her was a him, and she sounded like a man but…
The lipstick should have given me a clue, but it was confusing initially, even more so because his, sorry, her English was pretty rusty, and my Japanese was horrible. She took an interest in me because I was American. When she was still fully he, he used to work for Americans in the ‘60s. Or the ‘70s, but doing what I never completely figured out. But we managed fitfully to communicate, and after a few minutes I thought he was a pretty interesting woman.
She’d had the money at some unspecified point in the past to start the process of becoming her true self, to transition from male to female. Her family, which might have included a wife and kids, never understood nor approved of what she needed to be. They disowned her many years ago.
However, it was obvious she was accepted in Seoul Bar, but also treated a bit like an oddity. When another bar patron took a schoolboy jab at her breasts, it bothered me. It was playful, but far from respectful. But it was nearly 13:00, in a bar in a crummy part of town, and everyone was drinking. So maybe my standards were unrealistically high. Hell, she even wanted me to take a feel of her tits. She was proud of them. I declined.
She was also proud of her hands, justifiably I thought, but seemed frustrated by lingering facial hair. My guess is whatever hormones she used to take had worn off some time ago. She also said she still had the male parts she’d been born with.
I left the Seoul Bar when the karaoke was about to start and went out to the shōtengai to take more pictures. After about five minutes, I noticed my ladyfriend walking in the same direction I was. She had bar-snack crumbs on her face, and in the outdoor light I could really see how worn- and shabby-looking she was. Yet as she waved her hands around at my camera, her manicured nails were still noticeable, as were her few female bumps and curves. She looked more like a woman standing up outside than she had hunched next to me in a chair in the dark little bar we’d been in.
She and I walked together for a few minutes. She didn’t mind me taking pictures of her. In fact, she carried herself with a little bit of the vanity some women seem to naturally have, whether their looks entitle them to such vanity or not. But the fact that this woman, this shabby, incomplete woman, carried herself in this a way instantly earned a small measure of my respect. It took, for lack of a better term, balls.
Like I said, she was proud of her breasts and not shy about playing with them in public. I didn’t ask her to do this. I don’t know enough Japanese to get that far. But she posed for me a few times out there in the street, and this is where her hands always ended up. You’ve got to roll with these things in some parts of Tokyo street life.
Then she walked over to talk to her friend. It was a short conversation. The guy in the gutter made a slow lunge for my ladyfriend’s crotch. Her response, as I barely understood it, was to offer to show the man that he would have gotten a handful of male goodies if she had let his fingers reach their target. This was a little bit too much for me, the idea that this incomplete woman was prepared to whip out her male equipment in the street.
So I walked away. But you know, I never even got her name.
(Pictures taken on the shōtengai in Sanya, Tokyo in April, 2012)
I discovered the Seoul Bar in Sanya, a rundown section in northeastern Tokyo, after watching a surly drunk get thrown out of it. A few days later I went back to this little joint because it had captured my attention and curiosity. And I wanted to see if the drunken ejected patron had been let back into the place.
At first I thought the old smooth-headed gentleman in the chair was the ejected boozer from my previous visit. A closer, more scrupulous look at the man proved me wrong. But then my eyes were immediately drawn to Mama-san, a beautiful older woman who calmly surveyed the street in front of Seoul Bar and whose smiling face beamed with what I took for pride.
When Mama-san saw me, she recognized me from several days before. And when she understood that I meant to enter the bar, she retreated back to a table inside and started clearing and cleaning a place for me to sit.
I sat at the table Mama-san cleaned for me with this gent. He ignored me at first, but as a foreigner visiting Japan I am used to this. Yet he stared so long out the front of the bar and into the street that after awhile I decided he really was more interested in the people coming and going outside than he was in ignoring me.
The Seoul Bar is small, the prices are cheap. But the pictures on the wall told me that this isn’t just some anonymous, impersonal dive in a run-down neighborhood. After Mama-san insisted on sitting in my lap and having our picture taken together, I immediately understood that this is her bar and this is her way of making customers feel welcome. Through some bad English spoken by a couple of other customers, and my horrible Japanese, I learned Mama-san is South Korean, and she has owned and run this place in Sanya for 23 years. That’s a hell of a long time to run a drinking business in this poor part of Tokyo.
So then Mama-san got up to get me a beer, and I finally took a look around the place. It didn’t have more than three four-seat tables in it. The smooth-headed older gent from before was still sitting at the front of the place. He didn’t smile, but he didn’t seem hostile either.
Then there this guy, who sat at the small counter in the back near the whiskey and tea. He smiled quite a bit, and made me feel as welcome as Mama-san did. I think he was her business partner, or her husband, since he was wearing what looked like a wedding band. I liked him.
The I looked around at my table mate, who had finished surveying the world outside the bar and turned his attention toward me. He was a bit jittery and didn’t sit still much, so this is the best image he allowed me to take of himself. The items sitting on the table before him seemed to me like a variation of the four basic Japanese neighborhood bar food groups.
Then Mama-san brought my beer and some more snacks, and my table mate and I had a bigger bounty to share. Cheese twists, watermelon wedges, a peanut/soy nut mixture, and beer were the day’s menu items. I could have had kimchee or bibimbap if I’d wanted. They’re listed in katakana on the front of the bar. I later regretted not having a proper lunch.
The beer was cold and delicious, and the snacks were pretty good. But when Mama-san handed my table mate the wireless mic and the karaoke started, I decided to take my leave. I can’t stand karaoke, and this nice man’s warm-up singing sounded like the best attempts of an off-key inebriate. Which they were. So I said my best Japanese goodbyes and left.
(Pictures taken on the shōtengai in Sanya, Tokyo in April, 2012)
Coming up: The Incomplete Transsexual…
Seoul Bar is a little place on the shōtengai in Sanya, a run-down section of northeast Tokyo. It’s on a corner and from the outside looks tidy enough. But it is also quite unassuming and easy to miss. In fact, I don’t think I would have noticed the place at all…
…if I hadn’t been walking by one day when this surly drunk was getting tossed from the bar. Actually, I didn’t see him get tossed. He was just there, in the tiled street on his back like a pissed-off turtle, laying on his flattened hat and yelling loudly and angrily.
He laid on his back for several minutes, shaking with anger more than anything resembling the chills or symptoms of a seizure. I’ve been an angry inebriate myself on occasion, and I know the signs.
Mama-san, who at the time I did not know was the Korean owner of the bar, came out to try to help the surly drunk. By then it had become apparent that the other customers had thrown the man out.
While everyone else went about their drinking business, Mama-san brought out the man’s small bag of possessions.
And while she decided how to handle the man, he threw a string of angry words at the other men inside the bar. I didn’t know enough Japanese to know what he actually said, but I know invective when I hear it.
Eventually, two men from Seoul Bar came out and helped the surly drunk back up to his feet. I wasn’t sure if he knew I had been taking pictures of him. He seemed too drunk to care.
Well, until I took this picture. Then the surly drunk directed all his anger towards me, away from his former drinking mates. This made him calm down a little. But he still wasn’t let back in the bar. I saw him walking dejectedly down the shōtengai towards Minimi-senju shortly after I snapped this picture. That was the last I saw of him…
(Pictures taken on the shōtengai in Sanya, Tokyo in April, 2012)
Coming up: Inside Seoul Bar, and The Incomplete Transsexual…
It was just a food truck. But on an overcast early Spring day in Sanya, it glowed. It was god-like cheesiness. It was as if an entire amusement park had rolled down the street and parked at the curb. Well, a cheap amusement park. Not all the lights on the truck appeared to work.
But I didn’t walk away easy. In Sanya I never do. My friend and I were starving, but we didn’t buy hot dogs from the food truck. We found a nice mom-and-pop joint nearby, and had the best ginger pork I’ve ever had. But still, it was Sanya, and I felt guilty about passing the food truck by for a good part of the rest of the day.
(Picture taken in Sanya, Minami-senju, Tokyo in April, 2012. You can read another short bit about food in Sanya here.)
In Akihabara, it’s tough to take pictures of quiet but interesting places devoid of people. It is one of the most photographed parts of Tokyo. But I didn’t go there specifically to shoot pictures. I was meeting a new American friend at the UDX Building for a lunch date. I was late as hell because I hadn’t been in Akihabara for four years and got lost. Biggest goddamn building in Akihabara and I got lost finding it. Jesus H. Christ. Fortunately, my friend took this well and we ended up going to Go! Go! Curry (ゴーゴーカレー) for a quick lunch. Very quick, as my buddy had to get back to work and my tardiness left us little time for socializing.
And I regret that quite a bit. I hope to make it up to him when I’m back in Japan in September. Anyway, after we parted I walked around Akihabara for 45 minutes and took pictures of things that interested me and also had minimal human presence. These photos follow.
And for the record, I don’t know who the guy is on the storefront billboard in the ninth photo below, but I don’t think I like him.
(Pictures taken in Akihabara, Tokyo on April 20th, 2012. I have another Akiba post here.)
There’s something my great-grandfather
is reputed to have said when he died at 101.
Loosely translated from late Edo-period Japanese,
he said: “I’m a coward when it matters,
and a hero when it don’t.”
This may be apocryphal family history.
Most family history is.
It’s blended from different sources like bad scotch,
being as it is neither comfort nor condemnation.
But on days like this in the chump streets,
I know how the old man felt.
Yes, in this place where I live,
I know how the old man felt.
(Pictures taken in Sanya, Minami-senju, Tokyo, in April 2012)
Photos updated on 02/16/14
Author’s note: This is a condensed, reworked excerpt from my recent Amazon Kindle photo essay book “Ningenkusai: A Tokyo Panic Stories Mini-book”. I prepared it for exclusive publication by the Japan Subculture Research Center. But, happily, it was then picked up and republished by Zero Hedge. You can buy a copy of the full book at Amazon.
You’ve probably never heard of Sanya. The Tokyo City Government doesn’t acknowledge its existence, and you won’t find it on any official maps. Sanya is more or less Tokyo’s skid row, where people, mostly men, end up when the other parts of this immense, gleaming city have stopped offering comfort and opportunity.
Sanya is where the Japanese outcasts, food animal butchers, leather tanners, and other professions considered “unclean” by Japan’s traditionally Buddhist ruling class, a.k.a. the burakumin, or dowa, plied their trades for centuries. These tradesmen may mostly be gone, and the smell of the blood they spilled long-since drifted away, but the stigma of what Sanya once was remains, and it clings to the many of the people who live and work here.
Sanya is a blue-collar place, where an aging population of day laborers lingers on the fringe of Tokyo society. Many laborers have drinking problems, and they’ve ended up in Sanya to hide their abuses from their families. Sights like this fellow are pretty common, except in rainy weather.
And even then Sanya has a shōtengai dotted with little bars and liquor stores.
For many men in Sanya, government welfare assistance is available but is a problematic thing. Applying for it requires identity verification by contacting an applicant’s family. Most Sanya men who have fallen on hard times and taken to excessive drinking don’t want this. They would rather their families not know where they are or how they live. Revealing this would mean bringing unbearable shame upon their loved ones.
So when you’re down in Sanya and public assistance isn’t an option for some reason, what do you do? You go private, to a small outfit like Sanyūkai NPO, a non-religious non-profit organization. The Sanyūkai NPO and the free medical clinic within it is run by a couple of foreign missionaries who have been doing charity work in Sanya since the early ‘80s.
Deacon Jean LeBeau, the director of Sanyūkai NPO, is a French-Canadian Catholic with the Quebec Foreign Mission Society. Deacon Jean has been in Japan for 41 years, including 28 years in Sanya. He’s a humble, affable man, who would rather speak Japanese than either English or his native French.
Sister Rita Burdzy, head nurse of Sanyūkai clinic, is an American from St. Louis, Missouri who came to Japan in 1981. She is a nun with the Maryknoll Sisters of St. Dominic of Ossining, New York, a Roman Catholic order whose members devote their lives to service overseas in specialties such as medicine and agriculture. Sister Rita holds a Japanese nursing license and is the nurse in charge of most of the activities at the clinic.
It’s a small facility, with only two beds in the examination room. Hundreds of ailing men have passed through this place since it opened in 1984. And somehow it manages to keep doing the job.
In addition to Sister Rita, medical services are supplied by a volunteer roster of over 30 medical doctors and registered nurses. Doctor Kanade Hagiwara, an urologist at a general hospital in Tokyo, is one of those volunteers. She treats patients at the clinic on the fourth Saturday of each month. The NPO is not a religious organization, and therefore does not insist that either volunteers or clients adhere to any one faith, or have any religious faith at all.
Within the clinic, the one concession to spiritual matters is this hand-made banner and the shrine beside it, which is dedicated to recently-departed clients and patients of the clinic.
Since Sanya does not officially exist, Sanyūkai clinic has an address in Kiyokawa, in Taito-ku ward, on a small street that could easily pass for an alleyway. Outside the clinic, unless it is raining or bitterly cold, men in need of clinic services sit on benches and wait, often with Sister Rita and Deacon Jean (whose back is shown) somewhere nearby.
But the men who gather outside Sanyūkai clinic tend to make it more of a social venue than the dreary medical waiting-room scene you might expect. They’re a diverse group, even though most are older day laborers who get less and less work as they age. The men in the middle and the right fall into that category. The guy on the left is a transplant from nearby Asakusa, whose reasons for ending up in Sanya are not entirely clear.
But this man, who died of a brain hemorrhage in June 2012, used to own a bar next to the clinic.
While this fellow is a professional cook who does not always get daily work.
If the men who frequent the Sanyūkai clinic share one thing, it is a quality Sister Rita calls “ningenkusai” (人間くさい), which she says “is a quality of being very human, of smelling comfortably human. Of being full of human traits.” She adds that this is the best English translation she could offer for a concept that she says is uniquely Japanese. With obvious fondness, Sister Rita goes on to say that despite their backgrounds and personal secrets “these men have a purity of heart and are very charming. There is no guile in these men.” She sums things up by saying when men come to the clinic off of Sanya’s streets and ask for help “no questions are asked. We’re a family.”
And you can feel the truth of it when she says it.
Reporting and photography for this story was done in Sanya, Tokyo in April, 2012.
There’s nothing I can tell you
of nothing you don’t know.
I am a busted-down door for you,
collapsed under the weight of cosmic law.
You are the wind in which I twist and think.
We have shoveled enough dirt together
to have moved the entire mass of the Earth
into a new orbit around the sun.
I am proud of what we’ve done.
There’s no mistaking it for
something ordinary people could have achieved.
So there it is, the end of us
and the beginning of something new.
As I said, there’s nothing I could tell you,
nothing you can’t already teach the new gods on your own.
I look forward to when they replace us
and we can drift down to the streets of a human city,
and live in the bottoms of paper cups,
maybe sleep on Styrofoam plates,
and love the fact that we aren’t responsible anymore
for whether we dream of mankind,
or mankind dreams of us.
(Pictures taken at the Iroha shōtengai in Sanya, Tokyo in April, 2012)
It’s a simple thing and a piece of genius, watching people at Kamiya Bar. And I’ve had the most wonderful conversations in English there, with people who only spoke Japanese.
I didn’t speak to these gents, sad to say; I was mostly too busy swimming in a hootenanny nocturne with my American friends. But if these guys were watching me watching them, they didn’t mention it nor act as if they minded.
Kamiya Bar is good like that, as good as the people, who will love you like a lost family member for an hour, and then forget you after one of you leaves. I didn’t know if these men were brothers, or co-workers, or on a first date of some kind. I’ll never know.
But it didn’t matter. The beer was cold and the “denki bran” (electric brandy) was dangerous. Everyone at the table we shared was having a good time, not a hint of regret showing on anyone’s face. Well, maybe a little bit of regret. Denki bran has a bite. Beer helps with that.
The important thing is to enjoy the moment, enjoy the place. And if you’re at Kamiya Bar with professionals, they’ll know how to help you get far enough into the night to hate yourself a little the next morning.
(Pictures taken in Kamiya Bar, Tokyo, on May 3rd, 2012. A good time was had by all.)
We jumble the domino bones of peace
and cry into our udon soup in
the zone of happy gone memory.
Sometimes we doze in the soup,
wrapping ourselves in noodles
warmer than ever was our mother’s embrace.
We can’t dash your hopes, but we can help.
We are useful men.
We are champions you never thought to ask
to take up swords and lasers at the Battle of Ueno.
That is actually a battle we fight every day.
Here in this park of children and wives,
of discarded food, we fight the birds for this,
and of half-gone cans of chuhai.
These taste better, actually,
because they contain the backwash saliva
of a thousand indifferent suburb-bound salarymen.
We are cannibals of time and men of great leisure.
Step into our offices and we will help establish for you
a plan to become invisible
and never bother the emperor or his government
(Pictures taken in and near Ueno Park, Tokyo in April, 2012)
You can’t pass a day
of insane madness,
in this world encrusted on water,
how much fertilizer it takes
to grow the huge watermelons which,
anthropologists have observed,
are the only food eaten by
The Giant Pink Bikini Women of Shibuya.
(Picture taken in Shibuya, Tokyo during Golden Week, May 2012)